Thursday, September 21, 2006
wat is wrong wif u?? y hav u become a failure in luv? or perharps u had always been 1...
wat is the cause of everything? wat kind of a man r u? y am u hurtin every1 ard u?? y hurt some1 hu luv u so much?? y?? is it becos u r selfish?? is it becos u dun care? wat hav u gt to deserve such luv frm some1 hu luv u soo much?? y cnt u be contented? y cnt u jus cherish wat u hav? y? y mus u make tings diffcult for every1? y dun u tink of the consequences? y? y u jus wana make tings complicated?
Y!!!! ayz Y!!!! i hate myself! y mus i be an asehole? y cnt i be gd? thr is sooo many y in my head n i cnt solve.... suicide is nt the solution... wat else cn be done? u r simply a jerk!! i hate myself!!!!!! i realli do!!!!!
stop blamin urself... cos its me nt u.....
written at 7:13 PM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Am i wrong?? am i realli wat my fren said as i am?? am i a bad bf? am i nt gd enuff? am i a bastard? am i irresponsible?? am i simply jus a jerk?? am i? am i? am i?
i thot i try my bez to be a gd bf, i thot i had tried all i cn to make tings work, i thot tht tings shd be the way i tink it is, i thot! i thot i thot!
i'm lost.... L.O.S.T!!!, i guess i'm realli lost, i had nv n eva be such a failure as wat i am nw in luv... y? wat is wrong... cn any1 tell mi? wat the f am i doing! tinkin! hai~
LUV is COMPLICATED i guess.........
written at 11:32 PM
Friday, September 15, 2006
yest was our 1 yr n 1 mth anni, intial plan was duno go whr n eatin new york new york, met dar dar at yck mrt den headed to the places, on the way at the mrt i mention suki sushi i guess dar hav the crave for it so instead of new york new york we went to suki sushi instead.... reached cine n den be4 gng for the buffet went to buy tix for a movie... after the buffet was the movie: haunted hse, heard comments frm frens tht it was gd movie but for my pt of view it wasnt tht gd as expected but okie la better den watchin the host.. a lame show... anyway after tht went to taka becos dar say wana buy sth n she brought mi a billabonghp strap, like it a lot cos i was the one whu wanted to buy but didnt.. thx dar.... after tht was shoppin at some shoes shop.. both of us nt in gd condition, dar was sick n mi rushin for proj so both r tired, den didnt shop much lo....
ohh ya.. tokin to the proj... we did a gd job i tink... ms lee said tht she was quite impress den overall gd lo... phew... all the hard work had been appreciated... gd gd gd!! okie okie back to the anni.. after tht was sendin dar hme n hme swt hme for mi.....
for wat happen tdy was nth much 2 lectures den after tht was attendin for the seminar at nus, learn frm pple abt their business 1 of them was interested as it allows u to lock ur hp, track ur hp, retrieve ur data, or erase the data.. gd to those pple hu always lose their hp, n u knw wat he uses tammy as a example wen u lost ur hp under losin privancy... overall was okie la.. after takin the snacks to eat den went hme liao... if u guys interested in the lock phone tingy its website is
www.tencube.com hope it may help u in someway... anyway dats all for tdy.. hope dar is feelin better frm her sickness... dar tc!
written at 9:29 PM
Saturday, September 02, 2006
02.09.06
so so fast my brk wk gng to end le.. 1 last day tml... wat hav i done? nth ba..
Mon - i was studyin all day long until i go out wif joe n weiquan, too long nv quan meet ald so meet up and went to play pool, our favourite tings to do everytime.. used to play a lot last time but nw nt really le den they gng army soon also.. hai... den after tht for supper n chattin under quan block.. reach hme abt 2.30am... drove them hme den mi went hme to slp...
Tue - woke up den spend sometime studyin be4 gng out wif dear to eat her fondue n ltr on the extra order which is the muddy mud pie, food was gd but kinda of too choco, but as long as dear enjoy it i'm fine wif it.... den after tht went bugis magic shop, brought nth den went hme after sendin dear hme...
Wed - was my claz chalet.... helen came over to my hse den i drove to ting hse... stay for a while den after tht send ting's bf melvin to comfort drivin centre den after tht went to loyang point to buy the drinks n ice... den after tht was chalet... chalet was fun, first time in poly life wif almost all the claz mates ard den had a gr8 time la.... play, eat, drivin ard n sori to dear make her wori nv msg her.. wanted to but i assume sth so liddat lo.. sori laopo...
Thur - reach hme abt 8.30am in the mornin frm chalet.. was damn stress, whole nite nv slp at chalet den early in the mornin traffic jam like siao, but luckily made hme safe n sound... went to top up 30bucks of fuel be4 gng hme send helen n zwan to bus stop... den was slp slp slp woke up pretty late den after tht was slackin ba n study a bit
Fri - dear came my hse den had lunch, slack a while.. dear fall aslp n mi leh went to study lo hai... den after tht i send dear to work... be4 tht went to buy sushi cos dear is hungry lo.. den after tht i went hme le....
Sat - other den study nth much... tis 2 days feel veri bad, veri wori, veri veri veri nt gd... dear work till 11.30pm, so she goes hme veri late, being tinkin of fetchin her frm work.. but i didnt.. feel tht i'm a bad bf... feel sucky.. feel bad.. hai.. sometimes i do wonder, am i a gd bf... or i simply a bad bf.... i duno... guess i'm bad i'm sori dear.. sori....
yz luv ws!! peace!! shasha!!
written at 11:22 PM
