Tuesday, October 24, 2006
tings aint gng well for mi... tis few days keep kana scoldin n naggin becos i went out... i dun really spend money wen i go out lo.. imagine i hav oni like 20bucks wif mi n i go out str for 3 days.... if i were to spend money it 20 sure nt enuff lo... i didnt even say i wan money agn lo even if i wan more but i knw its nt gd to ask for more wen i ald hav quite a sum of money to spend for 1 wk.. its jus gng out wif my frens oni ma... i jus dun understand... sayin mi turn bad? if i were to turn bad i ald smoke la, fite la, stay awy frm hme n ald did wen i was 14 - 18 lo.. which is the most rebel period of a guy... i didnt ma... i jus dun understand y they cnt understand... i knw they care dats y they nag but... hai.. cn u be more understandin a bit... is it becos i'm single den they started to nag? cos they seems nt to nag at mi for a long long time ald lo... hai... i jus nid some freedom!!!!!
random thots recently... i wonder.. is it right or is it wrong... but i guess its no pt tinkin abt it... let time take awy everything ba... let my brain be wash.... sayin forget n forget is 2 diff ting...
test is on fri... i haven study.. coded frm ms lee "god help u lo".... i guess i really nid god's help in both my academic n my gradin for my blue belt...
written at 10:38 PM
Saturday, October 14, 2006
..Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You are shy and reserved. If you've drawn a cross on each of windows, you always want to live alone. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.
http://drawahouse.com/houses/show.asp?houseID=419913&houseHash=15e6f4d92d852218e49ff77bd1023580
written at 1:42 AM
Thursday, October 12, 2006
wat is the real reason behind the grindin of my teeth wen i slp? i knw the cause of grindin teeth is due to stress but wat is the stress tht is makin mi do so?? i really wonder!!... i dun stress myself wif projs, anyway gt no more projs.. i dun stress myself wif exams cos i usually dun score well n jus oni pass n i'm contented... rls? i dun hv a gf nw... dun really hav a prob wif tht ba... money??? although dun realli hav enuff to spend but still enuff for mi to survive ba... so wat is the cause of grindin my teeth??????
counsel? see professional? wat cn i do?
is it becos of tht????? is tht the cause of everything? den am i right to blame on tht? shd i jus keep my mouth shut n let it be? or shd i jus say it out?? wat shd i do? wat lies ahead is a cliff, wat lies behind are hungry lions... shd i move forward or shd i move backward?? cn any1 tell mi??? hw i wish i cn say i cn tell? but cn i realli do so? is confrontin the right choice? or keepin mouth shut den is the right 1? say out le gd ma? is it gd? is it bad? i wonder... but vice verse leh??
suddenly feel lonely... suddenly dun feel like doing anything... suddenly dun wish to smile... suddenly feel tht gt no1 to tok to.. no1 cn save mi oni i cn save myself....
hai~.... wat the fuk!!!!!!!!!!! turnin Apathy & Avolitional liao~~~~
1 of my fren wrote tis... sori nv ask n i copy n paste...
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it oepns up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one person, no different from any other person, wanders into your life... You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love."
yz says - i dun hate luv cos luv is wonderful n special in some ways... wat i tink is i guess i dun hav the right to ask for luv...
written at 10:52 PM
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
dedicated to her....
1yr 1 mth long or short i duno but i cnt thx u enuff after u step into my life... u hav been a veri gd gf to mi.. despite all those unpleasant stuff tht happen but still you r a gd gf... thx you for fulfillin so much of my wishes, thx you for alway thr for mi wen i'm sick, thx you for spendin time, money n everything on mi.. i cnt thx u enuff... tis mite be the end but it a start of a new chapter for both of us.. i hope the bez for u.....
i knw u work n work n alway get bully, try to get back to those ppl or nt wen u r in the society u get bully even more... alway work long hrs de, always tio bully sometimes u cn tr to say no or reject de....
i knw u always prone to injuries... try to be careful, try nt to get injure during work or during judo or even during daily life lo....
i knw u luv to spend money on eatin but then eat is okie la but u nid to save money for other purposes rite? dun spend all the money on food lo.... try to save lo... so nx time u nid money u still hav some to use for shoppin or wat so eva la...
i knw u scare to see doc but then hav to ma, wen u get veri sick lo.. or even b4 u get too sick, sometimes sth minor cn be sth complicated if drag too long... rem to see doc n u ald knw hw to swallow pills/tablet ald ma so its okie la...
i knw ur finger haven okie do rem to apply the cream n tc of it lo....
i knw nw u r havin tep n also work during the wkend.. u will be veri buz but tr to tc of urself dun becos of tht get sick lo...
i guess i wish u all the bez for ur tep, ur poly life, ur judo gradin... as ur kor/fren i hope to see u fly high get gd result n as ur senior i hope tht u will get ur green belt n do well in the competition... i hope tht u will find a better guy better den mi whu will treat u gd, dun giv up a forest becos of a tree cos its soo silly... anyway all the bez to u... if thr is anything u cn alway msg mi or call mi de... will always be thr for u.... lastly thx u n sori...
written at 8:18 AM
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
i wonder.. i do really wonder.... shd i or shd i not... either way it isnt right.. hw leh? i guess ask god also no use... i wonder.. hai... its soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hai... wat cn i say??
written at 12:58 AM
